*Are you happy at the moment?
Yes, at this stage in life, I am happy. There are still struggles and things still stress me out but I like myself and my life.
*If you could go back and say anything to your 16yearold self now – what would it be?
“Art, photography and writing will always be things that save you; keep a camera, paints, canvas, pens and paper around.”
*What’s the most important thing you’ve learned this year?
The most important thing I learned (or realized) this year is that no one really knows what they’re doing and everyone is just trying to find their own way. Most often we ask other people who we think have a better clue than we do and it turns out that many times, what you find out is that when they were starting out or were at the same point in life that you were at, they didn’t know what to do and just did what they thought they should. Often times, we don’t have someone to guide us through, so be your own guide and if you are lucky enough to have a helpful mentor, don’t take them for granted because they’re rare. Most people will not help you unless there’s something in it for them.
*What do you most want to achieve in the next 12 months?
I’m currently working on several creative projects and within the next 12 months I’d like to see many of them come to completion as well as be able to afford things like a new car and home. I hope to see my production company and our business grow and expand with the projects we take on.
*What’s your secret to happiness?
Living life on my terms. The rule I live by and set for my children is: Do what you want to do so long as you cause no harm to yourself or others.
*What one ritual or practice keeps you grounded?
I started doing daily meditations and I find them to be really soothing. Once a day for anywhere from ten to fortyfive minutes, I think is a good spiritual cleanse that helps to reset the mind.
*What’s your biggest regret?
My biggest regret is that I stayed in a relationship I was miserable in for a lot longer than I should have. I was stuck in a miserable marriage for a decade and held myself back from so much. I lost a lot of who I was.
Once I was able to allow myself to break free from that (and believe me, it was scary and difficult to do), I was able to finally let go of a lot of self doubts and started to live my life on my terms again. I felt liberated. I started making art again. And I found that being a single mom wasn’t such a bad or scary thing because I actually really like my children and their company. After my divorce I was able to be a much better and more attentive mom to them as well.
*What’s the most important lesson you’ve taught your kid(s)?
That I’m not always right.
I have let my kids in on the big secret that most people don’t realize until adulthood; Mom is a flawed human, just like everyone else. I’m not perfect, sometimes I will be wrong and it’s okay to be mad at me.
*What bad habit would you most like to change about yourself?
Time management is one of my biggest challenges. There never seems to be enough hours in the day. I’d like to change my habits with trying to cram too much into one day and come to accept the fact that it’s okay to slow down a little and take a break.
*Aside from motherhood/fatherhood and marriage what are you most proud of in your life?
I’m a constant work in progress that is always evolving. I’m proud to know that I’ve come along way from where I was five years ago but I still have a long way to go so I look forward to seeing where I’ll be in another five years if I keep working hard to accomplish my goals.
I’m proud that I had a vision and saw it through despite many obstacles, I did it anyway. I proved to myself that I can. And therefore I will continue.
*When were you happiest?
In my personal life, I am happiest anytime that I can sit back, relax and just enjoy my children’s smiles and laughter as they talk about life. In my professional life I am most happy when a project is completed and I can sit back, watch it and feel a sense of accomplishment when I hear the feedback from women across the world.
*What ten words best describe you?
Matriarch, Director, Writer, Artist, Teacher, Healer, Chef, Naturalist, Intelligent, Empathetic.
Jacqui Blue is an emerging filmmaker; director, writer, business owner and mother of five sons. Before putting herself through film school in 2011, she spent the greater part of the last decade working as a stay at home mom and wife. After 10 years of marriage, Jacqui and her husband went separate ways due to irreconcilable differences. Scary at first, this was exactly what she needed to find self liberation and started living life on her own terms. With her children and new career goals in focus, Jacqui moved across the country and started a new chapter in life. In 2014 she released her first documentary, Beautiful Births, which has received international acclaim and launched her own production company, Starseed Pictures. She has recently worked with James Franco and Jay Davis at Studio 4 on a short film and is now in production with a second documentary, a short film, and a web series.